To love and be loved

On September 7th 2020, I became a mum (to a child that I actually gave birth to, if you know you know 😅). I don’t think I anticipated how much I would love this little force of nature but there are days I look at her and my heart could burst. The joy, the immense privilege, it’s all so much! As much as I didn’t anticipate just how much I could love her, the older she gets, the more I realise how mutual the feeling is.

To be loved so much that the person would literally join themself to you if given the chance is something I have still not gotten used to but I’m terribly grateful for. To be looked up to for guidance. To be run to for safety. To be a reassurance in times of fear. To love and to be loved. Our relationship always causes me to think “wow, God loves us even more than this!”

I am unfortunately not an ever present help in times of need, I cannot calm the troubled waters of her life, I cannot give rest to her soul but I pray that what I do, leads her right to the One who can. Whenever I sense that she may be lonely or afraid (especially during those sleep training days 😭) I would pray that God should reassure her that I love her. That prayer soon became for God to fill her with a sense of His love – that all encompassing, reassuring, unconditional love – that’s way more than I have to offer.

So, to conclude, “we love because He first loved us” is one of many scriptures that should guide our parenting. We can only do so much but as we lead our children to Christ, the concept of His love should not be foreign to them because by His grace we have modelled it to the best of our ability.

P.S. I’m back baby (hold me accountable 😂) x